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The fear of starting over
I can’t help but feel
When hope pulls from with under
Inconspicuous feel
I don’t know where it goes
A moment of surrender
Caught in my heels
Hope tugs from with under
An inconspicuous feel
I don’t know where it goes
When I wake from childhood
Will I still be understood
Oh heaven, please, still see me
When I grew from childhood
Did I be just what you would
Have me to be
I’m still coming for me
When I go, I will know
On my back in the middle of the night
I am picking fights
It’s absurd, it’s my curse
Combat, in the middle of the night
There’s a war in my mind
But I’ll be fine, I’ll be alright
When I wake, I will thank you
Hope is taking over
I can’t help but feel
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Killer
03:42
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You will hold my heart
I feel it in the way that we depart
Before you go, yeah
Loosen your hold, yeah
Not a day goes by
Where you don’t cross my mind and I
Forget to leave you
Where I found you
Now you’re looking at me
Asking without words
I can’t tell you yes
Until you say it first
And the secrets you keep
Holding from me
Feel like a killer
I carried you to the Pacific
Somehow I feel that we missed it
I wonder where you are
And what you’d say if you knew
I feel you in my routine
I feel you when you’re unseen
It was a matter of time
Until I came back to you
Now you’re looking at me
Asking without words
I can’t tell you yes
Until you say it first
And the secrets you keep
Holding from me
Feel like a killer
You hold me in the dark
We’re both playing our part
As we make our rounds
Like we’re on familiar ground
But the fools we play
As we decay
Feel like killers
I’m a fool, you see
The hold you have on me
You’re a killer
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June
03:39
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I’m having a hard time getting over
Naive feelings I had like when I was a kid
I’m finding it easy staying under
Water with you, drowning alongside broken love
You pull my head under my feet
You’re a spark
I’m finding it tricky staying easy
As you cross the room when I’m still afraid of you
With your charming disposition
Shining, I’m unmatched as the quiet girl in the back
I don’t dress like the pretty girls do
But I still want you
Confidence subsides
I don’t want to hide away, but I do
My doubt overrides
My intuition to confide in you
While I feel you as you go
As I’m waiting, you’re not calling
With reciprocated ideals of what should be
Touch and go plays a fool of me
Love is sly
Tongue tied I wait until the most appropriate hour
Maybe in June
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4. |
Killing Time
03:24
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Furtively lonely
Empty plane rides
Long bus lines
Busy minds
Leaving quiet towns
Taking on discordant cities
I’ve been roaming independently
Waiting inconsequentially
Half asleep on the bus
Too early in the morning
To see any light
I’ve been killing time
I’ve been blue all down the line
I’ve been killing time
I don’t want to come back here alone
All the years you didn’t show
I painted pictures I don’t know
I left the door open to my empty apartment
I hit the road
It doesn’t do me any good
When I’ve been misunderstood
Confusion intertwined
I’m still killing time
Passing road signs
I’ve been killing time
I’ve been blue all down the line
I’ve been killing time
I don’t want to come back here alone
Half asleep on the bus
Too early in the morning
To see any light
I’ve been killing time
I’ve been blue all down the line
I’ve been killing time
I don’t want to come back here alone
I don’t want to come back here alone
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No Contracts
03:34
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A quiet world, alone
Is the only one I’ve known
Home in the night with a single lamp light
I finally feel alone
My only baby
To see my dark side is gone
He’s flown on
I never signed up to be anybody else
To be anybody else
I never signed on for anybody else
To save me from myself
When the crowd surrounds
And drowns around my sanity
I can feel myself slowly lose control
With the ease of my mind
I am sure at heart
Although, I’m slow to speak
It’s not only the social to succeed
Leave me be
I never signed up to be anybody else
To be anybody else
I never signed on for anybody else
To save me from myself
I’m too tired to sleep
Let’s save it for another night
This one’s flown on
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Procrastinating
04:20
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Paint me a picture in my mind
It’s alright, I’ll show you in time
Wave your hand over my eyes
Show my how to see your light
I’ve been wading knee deep in trickery
For we know the dreams we lost will cost our fortunes
While we take a shape we know will numb us over
While you stood in the crossroad
You carried on
You played my part
Long interrupted
Before you go
Show me what I’m good for
Paint me a picture in my mind
It’s alright, I’ll show you in time
Time travels on before we know
It’s all gone, where did we go?
I’ve been wading knee deep in trickery
I’ve been hoping, fancily, in trickery
For we know the dreams we lost will cost our fortunes
While we take a shape we know will numb us over
While you stood in the crossroad
You carried on
You played my part
Long interrupted
Before you go
Show me what I’m good for
For we know the dreams we lost will cost our fortunes
While we take a shape we know will numb us over
While you stood in the crossroad
You carried on
When I could not
Long interrupted
Before you go
Show me what I’m good for
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Skyline Dr
03:05
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I’m waking up to the idea that I can
Accept the love I’m given
You come back each time to my mind
And pull me from within
Into the state we’re in
I can’t deny that I regress to naive
In all my plans to be
In my uncertainty
Forward we go in the flow
We explore in the waking crest of the dawn
Forward we go, we explore
In the unknown of all that is yet to come
I’m waking up as you leave with the sunrise
You leave a mark on me
If you come back with autumn come and gone
You’ll find a place with me
In my certainty
Forward we go in the flow
We explore in the waking crest of the dawn
Forward we go, we explore in the unknown
Of all that is yet to come
Did we feel love?
I recall the time you rode from me
Down Skyline
And I wanted you to be mine
The cards will fall and land as they may
If not in my favour, then all of this is forgiven
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Satellites
03:48
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You’re going home
You packed it up
You hit the road
Your 4x4
It doesn’t matter if you
Go off course
I’m right here
Where I haven’t been before
I’m right here
The one left at the door
But I’m alright
I’m alright while you’re forging your road
I’m alright
I’m alright while you’re out there alone
I’ve been there before
Leaving love at the door
I don’t mind
We fall through the night
We are satellites
I don’t hear
Where you stopped
Or where you’ve been
You’ve made it clear
It will be a while
Until you’re seen
You’re right there
In it, it’s happening
You’re right there
Feeling everything
But you’re alright
You’re alright while you’re forging your road
You’re alright
You’re alright while you’re out there alone
I’ve been there before
Leaving love at the door
I don’t mind
You drive through the night
You’re a satellite
I’ve said goodbye
So many times
But not from this side
We say goodbye
This is my time
But I’ll be alright
I’ll be alright
I’ll be alright while you’re forging your road
I’m alright
I’m alright while you’re out there alone
I’ve been there before
Leaving love at the door
I don’t mind
We fall through the night
We are satellites
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Drove to the terminal
To drop you off
You held me for a while
I was happy about that
Spent my day in a haze
When arriving home
There’s tricks in the air
That say you’re still ‘round
It felt so strange
It came by surprise
That you’d be the one
Keeping my ties
Throughout my day
It crept up so slow
That I would feel this way
Later that night
I went for a drive
You started to sink
Into my mind
As I went for a walk
Down by the skatepark
Somehow I missed you
Creep into my heart
February froze
Ones fast in their holds
Away from the cold
And the parking lot I walk through
Is empty in solace
Save one car, with kissing lovers
It felt so strange
It came by surprise
That you’d be the one
Keeping my ties
Throughout my day
It crept up so slow
That I would feel this way
You’re somewhere over
The Atlantic now
I knew that I’d miss you
Surprised in the way how
While your memory
Floats among the things
You left in my place
It felt so strange
It came by surprise
That you’d be the one
Keeping my ties
Throughout my day
It crept up so slow
That I would feel this way
Back in my abode
The lights are down low
Fatigue aglow
You fly into home
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Treasure
03:37
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You rolled into my life
Like you rolled up to my door
Without a second thought
Like all the times before
Stand in our distraction
With the focus on our fiction
You never meant to send a message
That would be misgiven
I walk to you, all the same
Can you recognize a good thing
When it’s standing there in front of you
There’ll never be a perfect time
To make a move and make it right
I’m standing at a distance, yes
But I know myself, I know my mess
We can take our time or waste it fast
Nothing we do can change our past
I think that we should just hold on
You’re struggling to find yourself
Like I struggle to find mine
In a world where love’s a privilege
For the rich and the divine
But in cars, streets, and basement suites
There’s something to confess
Sometimes it’s worth it to hold on
To a treasure in the mess
I walk to you, all the same
Hidden in the tricks and fees
Of wealthy thieves
In tired lies, in beady eyes
There’s a me that’s worth my saving
A you that’s worth my loving
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Serenity
04:16
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I hear the messages you speak
When you spoke them I have listened fervently
I hear the melodies you sing
I can feel them in the way you move through me
Softly sung through your humility
You speak through the serenity you breath
Spoken through the fears that I impart
Folly spoke and broke my breath apart
In absence of your will I was caught
In the aching of the foddering of hearts
I had dwelled inside for the longest time
Long before I learned the art of letting go
I heard you and when I followed you I found
You had opened up my heart and let it flow
Paint me in light
May my arguments fall within your sight
Paint me in light
May the amour fall in my fragmented night
While you make the call, you make it right
I’m standing here in my fright
I hoped all this time you were on my side
I hear you make it easier in time
I hear you make it easier in time
Gently, you persist upon my heart
Moulding every fibre into part
I can feel your touch within the dark
Despite my timid fears that I impart
In your quiet I am humbled non the less
When I feared the least in me was least you
Yet time intervened with what I thought
When I learned that you would keep your faith in me
I learned that you would keep you faith in me
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